Here’s an idea that crops up from time to time. I don’t have to actually become Orthodox. I can continue to attend occasional Vespers services and a Divine Liturgy from time to time, read Orthodox books, take up praying to icons and do other Orthodox type things around the house like burning incense.
I will say the Jesus Prayer throughout the day and incorporate all the things I learn from Orthodoxy into a sort of evangelical mystical mish-mash. I will grow a beard and become a semi long-hair and listen to people better. When I take communion, I’ll consider that it’s the real presence of Christ no matter what others think.
This way, I don’t have to cause family upheaval and go through all the agony of leaving yet another church. I’ll get all benefits of Orthodoxy without dealing with all the heaviness, and I won’t have to sell all my reformed and evangelical books.
If only it was that easy. Trying to be a Presbyterian mystic is a recipe for misery.